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so let me tell you,
this past week I've really been dragging at work and to top it off, I got chewed out by a client last night, right before I went home.  I was so furious I was shaking and couldn't focus on anything.  My brain was whirring and when I got home to see D I couldn't shut it off.  I felt bad because he's been out of town and it was his grand return, and I just wasn't in the mood. 

I couldn't fall asleep because I was just replaying everything in my head over and over and David snored....allll.....nightt......loonnggg.  And you know when you are already angry and half way sleeping / half way awake?  I totally took it out on him, pushing him around and telling him to shut up, to say the least I felt really bad all day.  When he finally left for work this morning I got a few hours of sleep in, but of course I dreamed up crazy work chaos in my subconscious.  Eventually I got up and went to my sister's for lunch with my dad, and I just couldn't shake the mood.

While eating lunch my Dad asked her about a picture on the mantle that is of her standing in front of an Everest sized mountain, covered with snow.  It brought back all kinds of memories and for the next hour she showed us pictures of where she lived (places I actually visitied!) and then pictures of the entire trek up to the source of Ganga River, a glacier, and then above that, the peaks of the Himalayas.  She told us about where the paths take you, and how she stayed with a lady Sadu in her cave for a night and she had warm woolen blankets that were really really thick, and how the glacier ice would chip and fall right in front of her while she was bathing in freezing water....

I've heard most of this before, and I saw a lot of it first hand, but it was a great shock to my mood to be reminded that here my sister is, changing diapers, fending off tantrums, and cleaning house, but just two years ago she was making pilgramages to holy sites, taking vows of silence, living a minimalist lifestyle, and having a secret love affair in an exotic country.  Wow!  Like, life really changes, it's a big wide world out there, and we have to be open to adaptation.  These are all big ideas, but what really hit home with me, was seeing the pictures.  There is something magical in them. 

Life goes on...............................