wow, it's been so long! The past few months it seemed really hard to gather any related thoughts and make room in my wedding planning mornings to sit and blog, but lately there's just been so much going on and so much running through my brain that I've been itching to sit and get it off my chest and out of my head.
The SIX SHORT MONTHS since I went to India have flown by. Since November: David proposed to me and we started planning our wedding, I flew to Dallas for a lovely bridal weekend for my lady friend Emily and then two weeks later drove to Oklahoma City to attend her father's funeral, and then two weeks later flew to Dallas for her beautiful wedding, and also celebrated David's 29th birthday, and our 7th anniversary, David threw a diaper party for his friend Adam, and a month later I threw a baby shower for my friend Amity, and one week later the baby was born and then I flew off to Denver with my lady friend Violet to see the YSL exhibit at the Denver Art Museum and THE BLACK KEYS IN CONCERT! I have flown every month for the past seven months and am ready to hunker down for the summer and check things off my to-do list.
I've also been busy processing all kinds of feelings the past six months that range from excitement at getting engaged, to deep sadness from missing my sister and nephew, frustration from planning a wedding, and joy at seeing my girlfriends get married and have a baby, anger and stress from work, and worry about the uncertainty of our future. Lately I feel like I'm bogged down by the stress and frustration and it's starting to affect my health. In Denver, eventhough I was having so much fun, I had chest pain the entire time and then started really worrying when I had a painful bump behind my ear that was probably just a knot from not being able to sleep from the chest pain. I was having heart palpitations throughout the trip and trying on wedding dresses made them even worse. Now that I'm home I find that my fuse is especially short and eventhough the chest pain is gone, now my right shoulder is all messed up and I think it's directly related to sitting at my desk and not taking a lunch break and working overtime the past three weeks. I find joy in seeing my dogs play and chase moths, I find joy in planting a salsa garden with David, I find joy in drinking wine with my mom on Mother's Day and showing her where I will get married, I find joy in holding and smelling two week old baby Alannah and buying her little teeny tiny clothes, I find joy in going to a morning movie with David and sneaking in our breakfast burritos, I find joy in the innocence of our new hires at work and all of their millions of questions and remind myself of how it felt at PRN the first few months, I find joy in watching David ride his new bike and play soccer again, I find joy in the afternoon rain storms, I find joy in cake tasting with David, and I find joy in planting new succulents! I try to hold on to these thoughts and not let the stress get the best of me, but it does.
I'm hoping that in the coming weeks things will calm down a bit at work and Dave and I might escape to Northern NM for a fly fishing trip. Then I look forward to a DIY / crafting summer at the Palmchalski house in preparation for the wedding in September!
Now, some dog pictures:
The SIX SHORT MONTHS since I went to India have flown by. Since November: David proposed to me and we started planning our wedding, I flew to Dallas for a lovely bridal weekend for my lady friend Emily and then two weeks later drove to Oklahoma City to attend her father's funeral, and then two weeks later flew to Dallas for her beautiful wedding, and also celebrated David's 29th birthday, and our 7th anniversary, David threw a diaper party for his friend Adam, and a month later I threw a baby shower for my friend Amity, and one week later the baby was born and then I flew off to Denver with my lady friend Violet to see the YSL exhibit at the Denver Art Museum and THE BLACK KEYS IN CONCERT! I have flown every month for the past seven months and am ready to hunker down for the summer and check things off my to-do list.
I've also been busy processing all kinds of feelings the past six months that range from excitement at getting engaged, to deep sadness from missing my sister and nephew, frustration from planning a wedding, and joy at seeing my girlfriends get married and have a baby, anger and stress from work, and worry about the uncertainty of our future. Lately I feel like I'm bogged down by the stress and frustration and it's starting to affect my health. In Denver, eventhough I was having so much fun, I had chest pain the entire time and then started really worrying when I had a painful bump behind my ear that was probably just a knot from not being able to sleep from the chest pain. I was having heart palpitations throughout the trip and trying on wedding dresses made them even worse. Now that I'm home I find that my fuse is especially short and eventhough the chest pain is gone, now my right shoulder is all messed up and I think it's directly related to sitting at my desk and not taking a lunch break and working overtime the past three weeks. I find joy in seeing my dogs play and chase moths, I find joy in planting a salsa garden with David, I find joy in drinking wine with my mom on Mother's Day and showing her where I will get married, I find joy in holding and smelling two week old baby Alannah and buying her little teeny tiny clothes, I find joy in going to a morning movie with David and sneaking in our breakfast burritos, I find joy in the innocence of our new hires at work and all of their millions of questions and remind myself of how it felt at PRN the first few months, I find joy in watching David ride his new bike and play soccer again, I find joy in the afternoon rain storms, I find joy in cake tasting with David, and I find joy in planting new succulents! I try to hold on to these thoughts and not let the stress get the best of me, but it does.
I'm hoping that in the coming weeks things will calm down a bit at work and Dave and I might escape to Northern NM for a fly fishing trip. Then I look forward to a DIY / crafting summer at the Palmchalski house in preparation for the wedding in September!
Now, some dog pictures:
